This is a song that was too sad and too personal to record three years ago, when I wrote it. When I found it again, and remembered what went into writing it, I absolutely needed to record it. It's sappy, it's vulgar, it's a little too clever for its own good, and I'm extremely fond of it. There are a few lines in it that are among my favorites, and I think it's very characteristic of the kind of songs I was writing in 2014.
lyrics
In my dreams it’s never peaceful
In my dreams you break my heart
In my dreams there is a reason
Someone else that makes us part
In my dreams you take off suddenly
With so much left unsaid
In my dreams you leave a knife in me
And desecrate our bed
But no
You still adore me
And Lord knows that I’m still
In love with you
But I know
I’ll fade away, the day you leave
And with 700 miles between us
We’ll both end up finding someone new
In my dreams you’re on an airplane
In my dreams you’re his to keep
In my dreams I drink you back again
And fuck you in my sleep
In my dreams I pay top dollar
For your likeness or your name
In my dreams you are a catalyst
Your absence for my fame
But no
You still adore me
And Lord knows that I’m still
In love with you
But I know
I’ll fade away, the day you leave
And with 700 miles between us
We’ll both end up finding someone new
In my dreams you leave me wallowing
With ends that I can’t meet
In my dreams you leave me following
Your ghost out on the street
In my dreams there is a story
Something I can sing about
With gravel in my voice
And some words that I could shout
But no
You still adore me
And Lord knows that I’m still
In love with you
But I know
I’ll fade away, the day you leave
And with 700 miles between us
We’ll both end up finding someone new
Now we’ve talked it over daily
To win you have to lose
Your career is more important
Than a year of “I love you”s
So remember me at least
For a couple painful weeks
How I tried to be my best for you
And made room in my chest for you
And used to call you kitten
You liked that I recall
So kitten, keep your chin up
When you land, give me a call